It's Friday! =D

Today I spent most of my time staring at summaries and counting the words.

Erin called it the suckiest job a teacher can ever do. Hahaha, but at least I still get paid for it =)

I think my brain has been very dysfunctional lately and my emotions have been so topsy-turvy, I dont even know what to think now.

Anyways, I think more or less I've decided to go to SMU SoSci, appealing to NUS FASS seems risky because i don't know if i can have enough discipline to study hard. =/ 

Dad was talking to me about joining the airforce after uni. Sounds exciting! He's going to bring me to the recruitment centre to have a look-see on wednesday, =D

>=(

I'm still effing pissed off that I can't get the course that I wanted. And I don't know how to cope :( i know I shouldn't be feeling pissed off but I don't know how to accept this.

:((((( graaaahhhhh I dunno what to doooooooo.

It took Edison so many tries to get to the lightbulb.

http://www.helpalvingetintoschool.com/

NO MORE WHINING YAY.

Like the walls of Helm's Deep

The Enemy has infiltrated my mind.

I dunno why I'm feeling so crappy after NUS posted me to Nursing. I know I should be grateful to even get a place at NUS, and I can always be a Medical Expert in the SAF in the future (sounds really cool),

but i still feel damn sore about it.

I dont want to study nursing okay, I want to study Political Science at FASS. I want to study Comparative Politics, I want my questions I've been harbouring since J1 answered. 

I feel like life's laughing at me like i'm the butt of all it's jokes. "You're so inferior and you took this LONG to figure it out??"

I'm really pissed off at myself. Why didn't I study harder for A's so I wouldn't have to deal with this mess? I always said I wouldn't have it any other way. I guess I was lying to myself, trying to cover the regret. 

Thought i could do it without God's help eh, landed myself in this mess. 

Really regretful right now. =( Not to mention whining like a spoilt brat.

I don't even know if I'll be accepted into SMU Social Science or not.

Telling myself I'm stronger than this but tonight I'm not. 

Blur!

Okay I didn't know this blogger app allows me to upload photos.

HOW COOL IS THIS FAN MADE PICTURE HUH. The Avengers will never beat this group of superheroes. Can't wait for a JLA movie to arrive in theatres.

Oh and did I mention that a Wicked film is in the works?! HAHAHA YAAY.

I can't feel my nose

So here I am, in a bus dressed like a cool ass lawyer, not feeling cool at all.

I am coming home from a trip to the dentist. Told them I wanted 2 crowns done, and this is what I get LOL. My head hurts really bad, my upper lip is frozen, my nose feels like a block of wood, and I think I'm in danger of drooling a little.

Before I left the place, the receptionist bade me goodbye and flashed me this brilliant smile. What a nice lady. Being the nicer lady I am, I returned her smile with a grimace, trying not to let the drool out of my horribly numb mouth. Probably looked like a snarling rabbit. I tried really hard to smile properly k, but my efforts didn't pay of because apparently she looked at me weirdly after that.

I'm home!

Went out with the Nutellas today to celebrate a special Nutella's birthday!

Jinni!
What an incredibly awesome person :) I guess people born on the same day as their nemesis are the stuff of legend. ;D
Anyways I am becoming more skilled in the ways of the ninja. Soon, I will be able to teleport. >:)))))

Hahaha, although the meeting was short lived, we caught up about some things at BLIC Ice Cream Parlor. And then I went to have dinner with Mabeline at 112 Katong! The Japanese food was gooood :)

Live and let live. How we place our priorities speaks volumes about what values are important to us, who we love and how we see ourselves.

I really hope we can still stay in touch after uni admissions. It would be really sad if we don't :(

Okay, I'm watching Moneyball on the laptop w my
Mom! :) Plugged the laptop to the TV.
She fell asleep (-.-)zzz

I'm feeling crummmmyyyyyyyyy..........

I want to whine but i feel like a spoilt brat doing that.

But i still want to.

RAHRAHRAHRAHRAAAAHHH

I still have to prepare for interview tmw.

RAAAAAAHHHHH.

I no voice alr. Gonna collapse soon.

Damn tired!

=(((((((((((((((((

Long day ahead!

Leave school, go to SMU to pick up the bassoon, go to NJC (wtheck damn far), practice, go for dinner with the blasted instrument, go for cell group with the blasted instrument, back breaks, home, prepare for tuition, SLEEP.

Ugliness

Sometimes when I see the elderly working as cleanliness maintenance officers, a part of me dies a little.

I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way too. I don't think they ought to be subjected to this kind of menial work. :(

My dad was telling us about an old lady with a hunched back who was walking around in the hawker centre looking for food to eat/asking for money to buy food. I wish I was there to buy her something :(((

The more I think about it the more I feel undeserving of the things I have.

Consider the lilies how they grow: they toil not, they spin not; and yet I say unto you, that Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field, and to morrow is cast into the oven; how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith?
And seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink, neither be ye of doubtful mind.
For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things. (Luke 12:27-30 KJV)

Hyperbole and a Half

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/

GO TO THIS WEBSITE AND READ.

My idol leh seriously. It's inspiring, her drawings are exquisite!

Hahahaha.

:/

I've been feeling really meh these days.

Even today when I met the class to go to miss lee's house.

Work can be taxing sometimes. I know I shouldn't be complaining but... Now I really know how teachers feel. Cannot stop worrying one leh. Lol they have to do lesson plans, mark scripts, etc.

Miss Lee said I could be an English Teacher next time. LOL. I don't think so. Even now, I really can't make that student/teacher barrier, cos I'll always be that irritating kid at the back of the class. Hahaha. Retribution in its truest form!! x_x

I wanna do so many things when I get my pay. Yay!! Watch Wicked w my bro (again) and buy more games bahaha.

Braces are off, I'm feeling worse than ever now, really need to get those veneers soon! Self-conscious, low self esteem. Sometimes I really think I used to be a hollow shell of what I used to be. Everything went splendidly in secondary school, but now after a few bumps and falls, I feel like a damn loser lol.
Gotta buck up and gain some self-worth back!

Grrr, ok scratch that. I really need to keep my focus on the straight and narrow. Trust God and He'll make things work out in the most beautiful way.
"Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth." -Matthew 5:5

Every time I find myself becoming proud and complacent, everything will just fall back to shambles. Gotta stop doing that.