So thankful!

5.55am 16/11/2012

Here I am sat at city hall mrt, listening to Who Am I by the Casting Crowns, and I've never felt so thankful in my life.

I just completed my AW research paper over the night in school; i didn't even intend to stay over, it was just that my meeting took 2 hours longer than expected and i was just like, heck it, just chiong in school lol. it was pretty torturous, but i made the necessary revisions by 4am, and I was contemplating if i should cab home. Decided to wait it out for the first train instead. Watched Burlesque (horrible show) for a while and then did some research for my project (+ looked for a yellow casing for my laptop) and then left school at 0545. So here i am typing away at city hall met hahaha.

oh yeah, i wanted to say how thankful I truly am for where i am now. Occurred to me when i was walking to city hall and saw some bangladeshi foreign workers sleeping on cardboard boxes outside the lift. Maybe i could go look up Transient Workers Count Too. Firstly, I am so thankful for a place in this uni, that i am even able to slog overnight just because of one essay lol, that God has given me so much, when I really deserve much less. I don't even think my A Level results would even allow me to get into a local uni, even if it does, chances of success would be really marginal. I'm so thankful that God has put in my path a group of wonderful friends who never fail to be kindly, and so damn freaking hilarious. I am so thankful for this new laptop, and Im thankful that singapore is safe enough to walk alone at night (not taking many more chances though..) ahahaha.

I've been really thankful for whatever i have at the moment, i think it's a good way to cope with stress.  

Is there any reason for me not to be confident in myself? I can't find any, but I feel so lousy :(

I'm sleepy

Seriously, this staying up for the whole night to do finish things has got to stop T_T I need sleeeeeppppp.

Stayed up till 5am again, completing work. Oddly enough, I find myself more hardworking at night HAHA or maybe it's just that I have no choice but to do my things super fast cos deadline's the next day.

Stoppppp prrrooooocrasstinatinnngggg.

Hi Chantalle.

Hahaha happy now? ;)

>:/

To grow without empathy, to reach the top without thinking of those people who you've stepped on your way up, is abhorrent.

Lazy

I feel too lazy to do anything. Can I just stay at home and sleep the day away. :( lazy to go for class, lazy to go for cca, lazy to do homework SIGHHHHHHHH

Sigh it's a bad week,

I lost my retainers for real now, after I found it that day, I left it at my aunts house and she threw it away cos it was wrapped in tissue paper. FFFFFFFFFML. Now I have to fork out 160 dollars for one stupid mistake. Dammit.

I'm at the dentist now waiting for my turn to make the mould for my retainers :/

Hello!

SMU has been fantastic so far. I'm doing what I love, there's no lectures, so I don't fall asleep in class, and also because I need to answer questions some of the time.

(Hi mabe I think you're the only one that reads this space right?!)

I'm in MMA, where my body has been aching for a consecutive 2 weeks since training started. LOL. Really. I take 1 full week to recover from the punishment. I really hope to do well in this cca, and get to compete at least once in the 4 years that I have here. I'm thinking of running for SOSS committee, and maybe for the camp's org comm or facis, next year w my friends? I dunno man. Haha next time then think la. Now work load has been just nice, any more would be too much for me to handle.

I've been sick all the time though :( this is getting really irritating. I think I don't drink enough water sigh. And food! It's so hard to eat in SMU lol always no place to eat or study. Well, it's a city campus, so there's got to be some trade offs. Transport: there's a direct bus from my house to SMU! 45 minutes ride? :) fantastic stuff.

Next week there's a Mock MUN (Model UN). I tio Burkina Faso. Can't even remember the name properly. Hahaha. Gotta master this country!

I've some really close and great friends I met in sosci camp. Great people to hang out with, study with, and most importantly, we're very comfortable with each other :) what you see is what you get, no pretenses or false fronts :) God has indeed been good to me.

I feel really knowledgeable after classes too, and that's great because I don't feel as if I'm going to school for nothing. :)

Sigh, you initiate a convo, and never reply? From now on,

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song;
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone! who took on flesh
Fulness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones he came to save:
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied -
For every sin on Him was laid;
Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain:
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave he rose again!
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.

Derp.

Dropped my effing watch into the effing toilet.

Go ahead. Laugh.

Hello there.

Derp.

Pose!

Overdue!

Okay that day I went to Mabe's house to play kinect!! Hahaha damn fun, I'm tempted to buy a kinect on my own but I have a feeling I'll leave it there to rot. LOL. First we went to pick her bro up from school, SHE DROVE ME ARD! Like a chauffeur! HAHA JK. But it was really cool. I think I was a bad distraction though, kept blabbering away and dancing in my seat while she was driving. But by the time we got back to the house I only had 2 hrs left before I had to leave.

So after dancing (damn stinky and sweaty and sticky) she gave me a present! Omg it's damn cool hahaha with all the pictures inside and a commentary too!! Kinda like a documentary on my MJ life w the Nutellas. HAHA. Super touched. THANKS MABE. MWAH. <3 pictures later.

I was damn tired (and late) so I Cabbed home to change for a dinner w Roi and Cavan. It's good seeing Cavan again LOL he's more of a joker than me. He suggests that we exchange his PS3 for my XBox360 for a while. I don't mind leh!! :DDDD so we ate *edit (hi mabe)* AT dintaifung and talked until quite late. I never knew talking could make time pass so quickly.

I'm looking at all the hostels that my friends are staying in, and I'm so jelly! SMU's gonna be slightly more boring than that! I've always wanted to stay in a hostel. Hahaha. But I think I'll hate it after some time. LOL.

Okay tuition's over. This boy's quite a joy to teach sometimes cos he can get really silly and talk nonsense. LOL. But too bad I have to stop by the end of this month.

OMG YES I JUST REMEMBERED. Louise Dearman's going to be Elphaba in october!! Omg it's damn cool. First woman in history to have played these two roles in a lifetime. :D

Got my specs! My sister says I actually look less blur w my specs on. HAHA.

I hope the nutellas can meet on national day! It'd be so cool to watch the fireworks together! At a bar! And become silly and laugh! HAHAHA. What am I saying.

Camp Caedo tmw! :) gotta get a red shirts asap!

DAD PLEASE GET MY BIKE BY NEXT WEEK. IT'S MORE OVERDUE THAN THIS POST. :(((((

Derp.

I am a snob. Yes, there, I said it.
:(

Derp.

I'm so sleepy. Gonna blog abt yesterday later! Gotta go for a academic briefing first. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

Blur me.

I thought I didn't sign up for the SMU soss camp! I saw that the registration was closed, panicked, sent a pathetic pleading email to them, only to find out that I alr signed up v early on. LOL.

DEAR GOD PLEASE LET THIS CAMP BE AWWWEEEESOOMMMMMEEEE. I already missed the sports camp so I need a camp that's really good!

I LOVE MODERN FAMILY.

And Sofia Vergara. 'Nuff said.

Derp.

Sometimes I listen to music and laugh. Not because I'm crazy. Haha. It's just that most run-of-the-mill songs are now just comprised of a few good chord progressions and a nice drum beat and there you have it; another clubbing song. And sometimes the lyrics are SO stupid. You a stupid hoe! Hahahahaha. I laugh also because I'm imagining a few Victorian-era women listening to these beeps and boops, and seeing their faces.

Here's a picture of a hoe.

Derp.

Gub's intense stare at my brother smashing a cockroach to pieces. There's a back story to that. Never knew a cockroach could bring so much entertainment.

Ice skating!

Yesterday was really great, although I had my usual reservations at first, but it turned out pretty fun! :) hahaha not to say that I'm good at skating (I suck at it hahaha rly), but I had a fun time, discovering that you can't dance on skate without falling. They were playing such nice songs, I couldn't resist! Haha quite funny. Actually I thought I would be having a horrible time falling and making a fool out of myself, so many people watching leh! (ok I just petted Gub he's so smelly!)

Afterwards Jamie and Rachel went to Ballet under the Stars, while Roi and I went to chat somewhere. Lol good times! :) talk until 10pm sia. Haven't had these long long talks for a long time. Mostly because I have nothing to talk about (I think) but he had a lot of things to say! So I was sitting there like a sponge, absorbing everything hahaha. On the bus back, I saw Rachel! HAHAHA, she was coming back from Ballet Under The Stars, so it was a pleasant surprise :D

Okay back from a run. Here's some pictures from yesterday!

Let it go to God

You were standing in the wake of devastation
And you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
And with the cataclysm raining down
Insides crying "Save me now"
You were there, impossibly alone.

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. Let it go.

And in a burst of light that blinded every angel
As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
You felt the gravity of tempered grace
Falling into empty space
No one there to catch you in their arms

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. Let it go

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go. Let it go

Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope, but failure’s all you’ve known
Remember all the sadness and frustration
And let it go,
Let it go.

Derp

Why everyone's orientation camp so fun one! I hope next year's one is a thousand times better!! :((((((

SMU Camp

Nothing much really, just that it KEPT RAIINNNIINNNNGGGGG SIGH. Many of the games were cancelled and I felt pretty shitty about that because games are the things I look forward to the most during camps. Sigh. Anyhoo, got to know some great friends! :) hahaha but I'll be seeing them next year. Didn't tell them abt me signing on air force. Felt a little sneaky hahaha.

Speaking about airforce, looks like this little news has spread to my classmates. Can't help but feel let down. I know who you are O__O Hahaha but it's okay, it won't affect me anyways. But I kinda wanted to be the one to break the news. :/


Here's 2 pictures of my favourite cartoon characters all grown up! :D #nerd

Hong Kong!

Was a blast. It was exactly how I imagined it to be. Vibrant and colorful! :) the streets signs that hung over the bustling streets were really bright!

On the first day after we touched the tarmac, we went to put down our luggage at the hotel and went to Lamma island. The weather was excruciatingly hot, but good thing it wasn't humid. We took the ferry there and I saw HK's beautiful coast. There were many yachts too. Hk ppl too rich uh. Once we reached Lamma, we went to find the famous restaurant to have their seafood. Walk walk walk, walk until get lost in the village houses there. LOL. Then we had to ask directions from the residents. One of them said we had to 上山下山 to get there, and it was getting late so he advise us to just go to any one of the restaurants nearby to eat. So we picked one near the ferry pick up point and the seafood was really good! We had crab, and other stuff, I forgot.

At night we went back to the hotel to settle down and sleep. I had to sleep on the couch :(

Day 2 was pretty eventful. Other than a few tantrums thrown around by someone, it was pretty alright I guess? We went to a congee shop to have breakfast and it was the BEST congee I have EVER had. Seriously! :D we were damn full after that. Okay next, ocean park! The rides are definitely more varied than USS, but USS rides are newer and better :) it was still fun though :) didn't eat lunch cos we were so full from breakfast. There was this super cool roller coaster where the tracks were laid so that we we practically flying over this fantastic view of a yacht bay/cove. :D too bad we were too busy screaming to see all that. Afterwards, dinner at some place (I forgot) and a little walk at the night market. Nothing but a place of fake items and scammers :/ We left and went back to bathe and change into fancy clothes for Operation Backstage (the clubbing/pubs district). I didn't bring any fancy clothes so I had to borrow them lol oops. We got kinda lost on the way there, and kept asking Q for directions that she got pissed off and we kinda had to cab there from where we were. I swear I think a big amt of $$ went to the cab fares. when we reached the place, we walked ard to have a look-see before going into one of the pubs. Anyways Q got irritated us being indecisive and when we reached a pub it was so awkward!! Damn scary I tell you, the atmosphere was really like an icy hell. Sigh. Sherry and I were reluctant to order any hard liquor at first ( this pissed Q off further ), but the atmosphere was too horrible alr I suggested a game to play and the loser had to take a shot. So we ordered 6 shots and proceeded. The first loser took it quite badly and the shot was spat on the floor. I see alr damn scared cos it's my first shot (yes I know: lame). I lost next and everything went better than expected. Haha. Afterwards the happy lot of us went to a karaoke lounge to sing/slack/sleep. LOL, the lounge was damn posh and big! The couch was comfortable too haha. Too bad there weren't many English songs for me to choose from. Ah well. Accompanied Lucy back to the hotel to sleep while the other 3 sang till 5.45am. They got lost while coming back so they reached the hotel much later at 8am.

Day 3! hmm. I think we shopped. Yeah we shopped at the huge F21. Hahaha reminds me of someone whenever I step inside. Okay back to the story. Sigh, another day, another outburst. Q couldn't find us in F21 so she waited outside the store for us for 1 hour. I thought that she should've just continued to shop and look for us. Anyways she went back to the hotel before us and when we got back, the atmosphere was chilly again. we went to a dim sum place for dinner after resting for a while. Food was great hahaha, wth I sound like a pig saying "food was great!" all the time. But it really was! Cabbed back (again, cos it was 1am and the trains were not running) but this time the driver was a dapper chap and he knew English! So we were talking and cracking jokes w him. Hahaha quite funny.

Last day! We woke up to pack, and. Went to take a shuttle bus to the airport to check in our luggage first. Went to buy Lao po bing and other last minute things before going to Sha Tin to have roast pigeons. As disgusting as it sounds, it was the best meal I had in HK (haha pig!) Tastes like duck. Went to the airport, and before we knew it, we landed in good ol' Singapore. Dad was early (yay) and we sped home so I could sleep before giving tuition the next day. :)

I think I've missed out some parts, but who cares lol I can't remember them anyways.

Next post, smu camp!

Hong Kong, and SMU FTB Camp

Will be blogged about another day! Hahahha I keep procrastinating.

Anyways, received my first birthday card today by Rachel, Roi, Shu and Jamie! :) it's really pretty. I feel like making cards again! But I'm out of materials, and I'm so broke after the hk trip!

Went to the HP exhibition, I was thoroughly disappointed because it was so small and,,,, so small! It was just a prop showcase I guess? Titanic was more engaging. Took lots of photos, ninja-style. :)

:|

Will all my birthdays be as uneventful and boring as the previous ones?

I hope not :/

Derp.

Finished the academic writing exemption test. Quite difficult, lol I never study! The topic was about university education. Lol they're trying to tell us that we ought to be a all-rounded, balanced person!

Anyways, I think it's a win-win situation. If I fail, then I'll get to learn more. If I pass, that's one less module to worry about. :/

This picture makes me happy!

Sccaaarryyyyy!

Yesterday had to go to this amazing race game with Lucy and Sherry. It was based on the running man show, so when it came to the tearing off the tags part, it got really violent! Once I was cornered by 3 girls (strong, mind you). Two grabbed my arms, and one tried to grab my tag. Instinctively, I kneed her in the stomach. Yikes. Then dunno what happen la, then I pushed the girl and she went flying onto the floor. Double yikes. Later I found out she was a black belt taekwondo, so yeah :/ Said sorry afterwards and she gave me the mian qiang 'it's okay' face -___- ah wtv. being cornered by 3 girls bigger than me is scary okay!! Lucy was being attacked by 4 tough guys LOL. Afterwards when we met one of the guys, he said, "you should have surrendered what." DAFUQ RIGHT. Hate MCPs. Ugh, after we were dismissed, we just faster zao and went to vivocity for a while.

Next I went to watch Madagascar 3 at J8 with Rach they all. The show was really funny! But by then I was really super tired, so crashed immediately after bathing. Hahaha they were asking for me on whatsapp, but I was sleeping alr, Roi said "aiya she too tired la. Spoil alr." LOL. Yes I spoil alr.

So that brings us to today. After church, I went to smu to pay the fees for sports camp. Omg all the ppl there are so well dressed, how do they manage?? :((( sigh, it seems like I'll never fit in there. Ah wtv, I'll cope.

Now imma get some lemon juice (yay) and head home for my birthday partay w the relatives :)

Too tired. Blog tmw.

An uneventful life leads to..

The completion of a game in two days flat. I thought that MW3's campaign wasn't as thrilling as the other two. It's either that or I'm getting bored of the FPS genre.

What am I to do with my life nowwww,,,

Okay next game will be dawn of war retribution,, ohyeahhh!

Today there was cell group, there was a question: How did God transform you?

Well, I needed more time to think. I think God has made me into a much more thankful person, I mean, everything I have now, is all by the grace of God, and I'd really be suffering without Him. But other than this, I'm not sure about a certain 'transformation', like a really HUGEEE change in terms of me. I've always been like this I guess? Unless my memory fails me la. It's just that now I can't remember whether I was different last time.

Paycheck's in baby! :D

Dog Neva Listen...

Woke up today to a extremely bloated dog and a torn up ziplock bag w only 2 treats left inside.

Muck up matinees

I wish I was there!

In the west end, the last matinee (afternoon show) will be one where the cast have liberty to alter their lines or do pranks during the show. Hahaha example: During the song where the villagers march to attack Elphaba, one woman carried a spray bottle instead of a pitchfork lol!!

Oh man I really wish I was there!

#nerd

Oreo cheesecake.

Is it supposed to taste like a block of cheese? :/

:(

Baking and MW3

Goodbye sleep, hello headshots!

After looking at the price of Modern Warfare 3 on Steam (USD59.90, dafuq) I decided I torrent it. My very first torrent too! Did it by watching YouTube vids on how to dl it. *proud*

Anyways, played till now (mom just finished nagging at me, quite funny cos my dad was watching me play and we both stalked off quietly/guiltily when my mom saw that I was still playing the game hahaha)

Before this, Lucy and I baked two Oreo cheesecakes! One for each of us. :) it's looking gooooood. Who wants to try just come over and have a taste. Lol but the ingredients were freaking expensive!! It was fun though, :) we make every Tuesday a baking day. Sherry's always not free at night so, oh well hahaha.

Gub kept pestering us cos the biscuit 'floor' smelled really good in the oven. I swear dogs are actually pigs with fur and sharp teeth.

sigh the whole CHC saga is really unsettling. Waiting to see what God decides for these people.

Haha, another reason to be happy ALL THE TIME.

Makes you prettier! And makes you a source of light. Electricity bills goin' daaaauuun.

This is for..

JINNILOOJINNI

Panic attack!

What if I don't like it in the end???
Ohhhh nooooo I'm freaking out.

Medical!

Yay it went quite okay. :) so far so good. Peeked at my file and all the stations got PES A. The heart rate thingy showed I had some heart rate abnormality but the nice lady took it another time and it turned out fine. Oh and the doctor said my heart rate was lower than normal. Blood test was not as painful as I thought :) blood's thicker than I thought!

Watching Avatar the last airbender w my sis now! :)

When I retire and travel...

HELL YEAH.

And it helped me in the compass test too.

Gub's sexy and he knows it

HAHAHA someone please explain

HELLO DEMENTORS

LOL MABE HI.

Cripes, I really wanna go to Europe and stay for a while. It's so nice there; I thought SG was not bad, but it's getting worse. Wait, it's not only SG is it? Many other places are struggling pretty badly too.. Ohwell. Next time when I retire, I'll travel! :D

Things are moving pretty quickly, but all these procedures are kinda tiresome. :/ going to have a chat w SMU w my mom on Wednesday, so many questions!! I hope they'll hold my place.

Yesterday, I refreshed my playlist. Yes. No more musical theatre. It's all mainstream now! But I kept my beloved Wicked and Legally Blonde playlists ofc. Can't live without that.

Tmw school starts, and I still have to wake at 6am tmw for the freakishly early medical appt tmw. DREADING THE BLOOD TEST.

:( I feel like I'm drifting from God. Always like that. Why can't I maintain huh. Sigh. Okay tmw got lotsa time, gotta to repair that.

I hope Friday we can go play kinect at Mabe's house! Fingers crossed! :)

Rant: how could you say that? We've been waiting for you to come back to sg and you behave like this. Wtv ok, it's your choice. I'm not the only one who's irked.

:)

Dementors

There's this unexplained/inexplicable(?) sadness. Like my energy is leaking. Lol and I don't even know why. I think I'll be waking up to find that I've degraded into just a pool of blah.

Okay I'm sleeping it off. Goodnight.

.

Wtf what is wrong with people these days. I happy cannot is it.

Feeling like crap now.

Cellgroup never fails to cheer me up :)

Hahaha thank God for bringing me here!

Found out about a secret prayer group in MJ, how come I dunno huh!!! :((((

Haha anyways, I hope cell retreat happens soon! :)

The first fighter plane was called a Fokker.

Hahaha hi guys.

Just came back from a long walk with Gub. Who wants to see his sexy legz?

Grah I don't know how to arrange the pictures when I'm posting from my phone. So just use common sense for now :)

Yesterday I had a dream. Not a Martin Luther King Jr dream, a eat-rainbows-and-fling-unicorns-at-ants kind of dream. I was in a task force, holding a cool gun w me with all the cool gear and stuff, and we were at war with aliens similar to those that appeared in the Avengers movie. Speaking abt avengers, here's some pictures. Okay so eventually (I forgot he middle part) I was chasing this guy in a wheelchair, he was a mad scientist of some sorts, out to take revenge on something i think.. I got him cornered, and he triggered a device that would cause earthquakes. I ran out of the building expecting an earthquake to happen but nothing did happen. Another scientist ally told me in an ominous tone that IT (MABELINE YOU SUCK HAHAHA) wouldn't cause earthquakes immediately. But would trigger earthquakes that would increase in frequency and in intensity. And then a sideshow of sorts came into my mind of many earthquakes that have happened the past decade or so.

Freaky!! But I hope I'll get to dream more of these action-packed dreams again!

I just went to my Facebook and scrolled to the bottom and worked my way up. Oh man, I miss all my friends and the silly things we did in school! :(((((

Sigh with all these deaths, it's all so real to me now as July draws near. :/ Alvina texted me voicing her concern! Hahahaha so touched :')

Work ends on the 24th, I hope these two weeks pass by quickly!!! Oh, I went to return the SMU bassoon today. Freedom!

It's Friday! =D

Today I spent most of my time staring at summaries and counting the words.

Erin called it the suckiest job a teacher can ever do. Hahaha, but at least I still get paid for it =)

I think my brain has been very dysfunctional lately and my emotions have been so topsy-turvy, I dont even know what to think now.

Anyways, I think more or less I've decided to go to SMU SoSci, appealing to NUS FASS seems risky because i don't know if i can have enough discipline to study hard. =/ 

Dad was talking to me about joining the airforce after uni. Sounds exciting! He's going to bring me to the recruitment centre to have a look-see on wednesday, =D

>=(

I'm still effing pissed off that I can't get the course that I wanted. And I don't know how to cope :( i know I shouldn't be feeling pissed off but I don't know how to accept this.

:((((( graaaahhhhh I dunno what to doooooooo.

It took Edison so many tries to get to the lightbulb.

http://www.helpalvingetintoschool.com/

NO MORE WHINING YAY.

Like the walls of Helm's Deep

The Enemy has infiltrated my mind.

I dunno why I'm feeling so crappy after NUS posted me to Nursing. I know I should be grateful to even get a place at NUS, and I can always be a Medical Expert in the SAF in the future (sounds really cool),

but i still feel damn sore about it.

I dont want to study nursing okay, I want to study Political Science at FASS. I want to study Comparative Politics, I want my questions I've been harbouring since J1 answered. 

I feel like life's laughing at me like i'm the butt of all it's jokes. "You're so inferior and you took this LONG to figure it out??"

I'm really pissed off at myself. Why didn't I study harder for A's so I wouldn't have to deal with this mess? I always said I wouldn't have it any other way. I guess I was lying to myself, trying to cover the regret. 

Thought i could do it without God's help eh, landed myself in this mess. 

Really regretful right now. =( Not to mention whining like a spoilt brat.

I don't even know if I'll be accepted into SMU Social Science or not.

Telling myself I'm stronger than this but tonight I'm not. 

Blur!

Okay I didn't know this blogger app allows me to upload photos.

HOW COOL IS THIS FAN MADE PICTURE HUH. The Avengers will never beat this group of superheroes. Can't wait for a JLA movie to arrive in theatres.

Oh and did I mention that a Wicked film is in the works?! HAHAHA YAAY.

I can't feel my nose

So here I am, in a bus dressed like a cool ass lawyer, not feeling cool at all.

I am coming home from a trip to the dentist. Told them I wanted 2 crowns done, and this is what I get LOL. My head hurts really bad, my upper lip is frozen, my nose feels like a block of wood, and I think I'm in danger of drooling a little.

Before I left the place, the receptionist bade me goodbye and flashed me this brilliant smile. What a nice lady. Being the nicer lady I am, I returned her smile with a grimace, trying not to let the drool out of my horribly numb mouth. Probably looked like a snarling rabbit. I tried really hard to smile properly k, but my efforts didn't pay of because apparently she looked at me weirdly after that.

I'm home!

Went out with the Nutellas today to celebrate a special Nutella's birthday!

Jinni!
What an incredibly awesome person :) I guess people born on the same day as their nemesis are the stuff of legend. ;D
Anyways I am becoming more skilled in the ways of the ninja. Soon, I will be able to teleport. >:)))))

Hahaha, although the meeting was short lived, we caught up about some things at BLIC Ice Cream Parlor. And then I went to have dinner with Mabeline at 112 Katong! The Japanese food was gooood :)

Live and let live. How we place our priorities speaks volumes about what values are important to us, who we love and how we see ourselves.

I really hope we can still stay in touch after uni admissions. It would be really sad if we don't :(

Okay, I'm watching Moneyball on the laptop w my
Mom! :) Plugged the laptop to the TV.
She fell asleep (-.-)zzz

I'm feeling crummmmyyyyyyyyy..........

I want to whine but i feel like a spoilt brat doing that.

But i still want to.

RAHRAHRAHRAHRAAAAHHH

I still have to prepare for interview tmw.

RAAAAAAHHHHH.

I no voice alr. Gonna collapse soon.

Damn tired!

=(((((((((((((((((

Long day ahead!

Leave school, go to SMU to pick up the bassoon, go to NJC (wtheck damn far), practice, go for dinner with the blasted instrument, go for cell group with the blasted instrument, back breaks, home, prepare for tuition, SLEEP.

Ugliness

Sometimes when I see the elderly working as cleanliness maintenance officers, a part of me dies a little.

I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way too. I don't think they ought to be subjected to this kind of menial work. :(

My dad was telling us about an old lady with a hunched back who was walking around in the hawker centre looking for food to eat/asking for money to buy food. I wish I was there to buy her something :(((

The more I think about it the more I feel undeserving of the things I have.

Consider the lilies how they grow: they toil not, they spin not; and yet I say unto you, that Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field, and to morrow is cast into the oven; how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith?
And seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink, neither be ye of doubtful mind.
For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things. (Luke 12:27-30 KJV)

Hyperbole and a Half

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/

GO TO THIS WEBSITE AND READ.

My idol leh seriously. It's inspiring, her drawings are exquisite!

Hahahaha.

:/

I've been feeling really meh these days.

Even today when I met the class to go to miss lee's house.

Work can be taxing sometimes. I know I shouldn't be complaining but... Now I really know how teachers feel. Cannot stop worrying one leh. Lol they have to do lesson plans, mark scripts, etc.

Miss Lee said I could be an English Teacher next time. LOL. I don't think so. Even now, I really can't make that student/teacher barrier, cos I'll always be that irritating kid at the back of the class. Hahaha. Retribution in its truest form!! x_x

I wanna do so many things when I get my pay. Yay!! Watch Wicked w my bro (again) and buy more games bahaha.

Braces are off, I'm feeling worse than ever now, really need to get those veneers soon! Self-conscious, low self esteem. Sometimes I really think I used to be a hollow shell of what I used to be. Everything went splendidly in secondary school, but now after a few bumps and falls, I feel like a damn loser lol.
Gotta buck up and gain some self-worth back!

Grrr, ok scratch that. I really need to keep my focus on the straight and narrow. Trust God and He'll make things work out in the most beautiful way.
"Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth." -Matthew 5:5

Every time I find myself becoming proud and complacent, everything will just fall back to shambles. Gotta stop doing that.

Sian

Still affected by the twitter thing, don't even dare to tweet now. :(

It's making this job feel worse than it should T_T

Adventure!

Hahaha okay so today I went out with Sherry and Lucy. Supposed to go swimming with then earlier but I didn't want to swim :(
Lucy told me Sherry couldn't do backstrokes so she kept screaming at her, "Be a corpse be a corpse!" while training her to lie flat on the water. Hahaha. Swimming boot camp for Sherry.

Afterwards I met them for a movie, Woman in Black. Kept thinking that he's Harry instead of the character in the movie. Anyways, it turned out to be a horror/thriller so I kept my ears covered and eyes closed most of the time. Haha WASTE MONEYYY. :(

Then we wanted to go cycle, but Sherry was too tired, so Lucy and I went to cycle all the way from tampines to ecp (got lost halfway lolol), and then walked back home. My legs damn jelly now. It feels great to have a bestfriend live so near you ahaha.

YESTERDAY I MET W THE NUTELLAS. I thought I couldn't, cos I forgot I had cell every Thursday, and dumbly arranged the meeting on thurs night. :'(
After cell when I realize they were still at Nakhon I RAN OK. Flew like a cheetah. Cheetahs do not fly.

Aweeessoommmeee to see these silly girls again. Makes me wanna shrink them and put them in my pocket wherever I go :D

What did I have to lose?

A really good friendship, actually.

:/

How do people just take having to live in a world that's so screwed up? Is maturation really the acceptance of things degrading just because it's practical to just go with the flow?
Every single day children are being born into a world that's grimmer than ever.

Okay today I shall be mature for today and go to sleep. Because it's practical. LOL.

My mom says I'm a selfish person. Working on that. I think I'm a prideful person as well. Working on that.

Feeling plain dumb for organizing an event that I can't even go to in the end. :(((( NUTELLAS I MISS YOU.
But there's this feeling I can't pon cell. Like really, if not something bad will happen. :x

Yesterday I went out with Janjira! Such a cute girl! Hahaha spent a lot of time chatting at macs, found out she's going to the UK to study, and Benjamin got a scholarship to study LAW at CAMBRIDGE. SMARTASS. Not surprised if he's going to be our next prime minister. Spent a lot of time talking about God's direction in our lives too. After that we went to see The Lorax. DAMN NICE HAHAHA. Especially the songs! Really witty. :D

What's that rumbling noise??? So noisy I can't sleep :(((

Dilemma!

I was reading the Brightsparks forums, and i was getting scared because people were rejected outright  by NUS with grades similar to mine.

So I went to ask around my facebook friends, those who went to NUS FASS. LOL I've not talked to them for really long, but i guess my fear drove me to be more thickskinned hahaha.

Ying Ling said to still put first choice and write a really convincing appeal in the DA part, and to get referral letters too. ok tmw i'll text mr nathan and miss low.

I dont know why im scared, as if i cant have any other choice of courses and universities.

oh well.

I'll follow where ever the Lord takes me.

Deuteronomy 31:6
Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, He is that doth go with thee; He will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.


Things will turn out for good! =D

Yay!

Hahaha the audition went better than I expected. I was sounding so bad at home, cos everything was too loud and I was trying to make things sound better and .... Okay boring band stuff. Hahaha.

So I went down to SMU SoSS, in a cab, cos I was getting late!! Cab uncle took me to the other side of SMU, so I still had to walk -_-

Inside the waiting room, there were two burly guys, in NS I presume, and the more burly guy played the flute hahaha so funny. Anyways I didn't dare to warm up hahaha scaredycat93

It came to be my turn and I met my
MJC bassoon senior there haha she's 2 years older than me. So it calmed some of my nerves that someone I knew was going to be in the panel of judges. Lol sounds like American idol or sth.

All in all, it turned out fine THANK GOD RLY. Asked me about what course I wanted to major in and all that. :)

TODAY IS AWESOME.

Things like this make me laugh at the most serious moments eg. Funeral.

Panda wanted Lucy to kiss his boobs. How risqué.

Hahahahaha.

Eek!

Auditions are tmw, and I'm nervous! There's gonna be an interview too.

Today, I thought I lost my SGC!! The o level one. My mom asked me where it was, and I thought she was referring to the result slip -__- I totally forgot that we were given a blue folder thing with everything inside.

Got an earful from the mother and quickly packed my room (which was a total pigsty).

I'm going to be a much neater person from now on! :)




Stop laughing. >:( I'm serious. :)

The White Burden

Kony Kony Kony.

I really think people should go read up more about Uganda, and try putting things into context. And then start supporting. I'm not saying that we shouldn't stop Kony, but I don't like the idea of people supporting and buying things sold by an organization they know little of.

Saying all that, I guess that they're one of the few organizations that have managed to spread awareness really extensively. Now that they've managed to turn the world against this lowlife, I think thinks will get much better in Uganda.

I also think that if I were there, to witness the atrocities, I'd be wanting to storm into his tent and kill him, guns blazing.

Why do people of political stature need enough support to do something? Why can't people just do something to help? Why is there even red tape and constraints when people desperately need help?

I guess then people would call for a one world government. That's bad, of course. But it's gonna happen really soon.

Boring things aside, I saw a BBC tweet about what female journalists should take heed of in the front lines. Super cool leh. :)

http://bbc.in/yZejYz

Ok just had a really full lunch with Mabe just now hahahhaa she tells me that I linked jinni wrongly haha oopsz

UP

Nowhere but up to go from now!

*ahem* (ok here goes nothing!)

Hello Blogger my name is Lynette.

I was bored so I decided to create a blog. Hahaha, wu liao.

Just finished sending my SMU application and the Diversity Programme thing. LOL Die, practicing one day before the audition DOES NOT BODE WELL FOR ME. ZZZ.

Okay damn tired this afternoon when i got back, KO'd for 3 straight hours, and woke up feeling a little under the weather so didnt go for cell group today. Such a nice bunch of people. But im still awkward. =( sucks to be a horribly awkward person.

okay so Wednesday i met Lucy to go over to MX's house, to put down our stuff before we headed to USS. had to wait for this horribly late girl, Sherry Ang Xue Ying for 1+ hour okay. Hahaha, the USS trip was packed with fun (adrenaline junkie here), although it was kind of an impromtu thing. Had sakae buffet, where Leah joined us and the we went to Udders! ICE CREEEAMMMMM. We celebrated Ryan's coming enlistment and we were all laughing like drunkards while walking to ryan's house from udders. Even the taxi driver thought we were drunk in the cab on the way to MX's house. LOL. We were talking to him about homos and trannies in the cab HAHA. I dont have pictures so too bad.

Hahaha okay this week has been fantastic, given that my boss let me quit on tuesday even though i only told him on monday. I hope tomorrow will be even better! Cos I'm going out to eat with Mabe WHEEE!


Lmao okay i finally have a brog Jinni and Alvina are gna be soooo proud of me! Hahaha ror.